In the last 18 months I have been blogging regularly and during that time I have learned so much about myself. Writing this is in itself making me feel uncomfortable as I’m opening up a little more. But at the same time I feel happy that I’m continuing to break down those internal walls and share what’s really going on inside.
Blogging has been and still is such a joy for me but at the same time it’s been difficult facing myself as it’s brought up massive feelings of insecurity and a lack of self worth. What I have learned is that for a long time I wasn’t being my true self. I’m not at the end of the journey but as time passes I’m developing a better understanding of who I am and what I like and I’m feeling more confident with what I see.
That’s the thing about blogging, when you create content around your personal life you are forced to take a look at what it is you are putting out there as well as what you look like and sound like. This part I found particularly difficult and still do to a certain extent. Posting pictures of myself wearing outfits brought up so much pain as I often hated what I saw. I suppose for a long time I didn’t have a real understanding or acceptance of who I am and what I look like. So whilst I have experienced a lot of pain from blogging I had this unstoppable desire to keep going. This is how I am breaking down the barriers, opening up and feeling more comfortable in my own skin. For me blogging is a great course in understanding who I am, what I like and how I want to contribute to this world we live in. Blogging is helping me get past how I look which frustrates me because it involves so much vanity and inward thinking. That is not who I want to be and I’m starting to look outward more often which feels brilliant. In doing this I’ve discovered so many interests and when I create content for my blog my focus is on others and how I can share what I have learned to be of use or interest. So, I can say that blogging is having an amazing impact on my life and as time passes I will no doubt discover more things along the way.